I've been running into the word "doppelganger" all over the place recently. First in the book "Atmospheric Disturbances" by Rivka Galchen. A good read by the way. And then just randomly in articles on the internet, blog posts.
Apparently, it's a German word that literally means "double goer" and refers to a double, or look-alike person. Wikipedia also says that it can describe the "sensation of having glimpsed oneself in peripheral vision, in a position where there is no chance that it could have been a reflection." I know I've had that sensation before. Not so much in the foreboding sense that Wikipedia further expounds on, but in one where I am momentarily outside of myself, looking into my life and self from a foreign place. It's such a rare thing--I can onlu think of twice when I've felt that way, and it always seems to be an objective contemplation of myself.
The mind is amazing. And scary. And awesome.
Happy 2009!
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Monday, December 29, 2008
Best Of
What I like about the end og the year is all the "best of" lists that go out.
My Best Of Best Of lists are...
Last.FM: Best ofs for albums, artists, and tracks
Amazon: Books. Editor and costumer chosen lists
Rolling Stone: Need I say it....
CrunchGear: All the best (and a lil of the worst) techy bling a nerd could wish for!!
Time: The top ten of EVERYTHING in 2008
My Best Of Best Of lists are...
Last.FM: Best ofs for albums, artists, and tracks
Amazon: Books. Editor and costumer chosen lists
Rolling Stone: Need I say it....
CrunchGear: All the best (and a lil of the worst) techy bling a nerd could wish for!!
Time: The top ten of EVERYTHING in 2008
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Actually....
I'm rather amazed at what all I've created, crafted, cooked and baked in the last couple weeks. Remove school from my life and good thing flow out of my brain and hands.
Life is good. And relaxed! That's the best part.
Life is good. And relaxed! That's the best part.
Photo photo photo
I don't know why I like words in sets of three.
My homage to Charlie Brown's Christmas tree. The mouse was hand sewn by Kyle's great grandmother for his 2nd Christmas.
Bittersweet that I found growing in the magnolia tree outside.
"Briar Berries." I don't know if they have an official name or anything, but they are pretty nonetheless.
Little red balls!
Lovely little glass candle holders from World Market (I love that place!).
My .75 cent clearance rosemary plant. Sure, it looks like a Christmas tree, but if I can perk it up, I'll have a great herb plant!
New favorite incense, Sandalwood. It smells so sweet.
One of my ribbon flowers. It only lacks a clip or hair comb of some sort.
My favorite ribbon flower hair comb!
My homage to Charlie Brown's Christmas tree. The mouse was hand sewn by Kyle's great grandmother for his 2nd Christmas.
Bittersweet that I found growing in the magnolia tree outside. 
"Briar Berries." I don't know if they have an official name or anything, but they are pretty nonetheless. 
Little red balls! 
Lovely little glass candle holders from World Market (I love that place!).
My .75 cent clearance rosemary plant. Sure, it looks like a Christmas tree, but if I can perk it up, I'll have a great herb plant!
New favorite incense, Sandalwood. It smells so sweet.
One of my ribbon flowers. It only lacks a clip or hair comb of some sort. 
My favorite ribbon flower hair comb!
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Beethoven
Beethoven must have been a very "feeling" man, one of deep emotions that covered many ranges. How else would he create such music? Sure, talent and aptitude are needed, along with the standard genius factor, but without feeling, there is so meaning or depth, even worth, to any action or creation.
Anyway...the source of this observation is a love letter he wrote a mystery love.
"Good morning, on July 7
Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours"
His letter was edited down to this in the Sex and the City movie (I'm sorry, boredom and curiosity got the better of me!! But I did find this-->):
"My thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved. I can only wholly with you or not at all—
Be calm, my life, my all. Only by calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together. Oh continue to love me, never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
Ever thine.
Ever mine.
Ever ours."
It's just so beautiful, be you in love or not. It speaks the truth of dedication that is in my heart.
Anyway. Enough of the overly romantic, sickeningly obnoxious love stuff.
I hope everyone had a relaxing and enjoyable Christmas!
I did make the cheese bread, and it was incredible! The changes I made were using half a package of normal yeast (the recipe called for instant......not sure if that's what I had or not...) in the sponge and the additional dough; adding crushed red pepper, basil, and oregano to the dough; doubling the cheese and mixing it with 1/4 cup garlic olive oil and some amount of parm. It could have used more cheese too, in my mind anyway, where more cheese is always better! :-)
Christmas Eve we had The Brothers (Kyle's brothers Jeremy and Alex) over for spanakopita and lots of beer! It was nice, and my spanakopita was amazing! I've proved that I can cook a mean meal! ;-)
I'm free from school until the 8th of Jan. In some ways I miss the academic control of my life, but on the other hand, free time is glorious! And the little extra income from additional work hours is nice too!
Goodnight all.
Anyway...the source of this observation is a love letter he wrote a mystery love.
"Good morning, on July 7
Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours"
His letter was edited down to this in the Sex and the City movie (I'm sorry, boredom and curiosity got the better of me!! But I did find this-->):
"My thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved. I can only wholly with you or not at all—
Be calm, my life, my all. Only by calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together. Oh continue to love me, never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
Ever thine.
Ever mine.
Ever ours."
It's just so beautiful, be you in love or not. It speaks the truth of dedication that is in my heart.
Anyway. Enough of the overly romantic, sickeningly obnoxious love stuff.
I hope everyone had a relaxing and enjoyable Christmas!
I did make the cheese bread, and it was incredible! The changes I made were using half a package of normal yeast (the recipe called for instant......not sure if that's what I had or not...) in the sponge and the additional dough; adding crushed red pepper, basil, and oregano to the dough; doubling the cheese and mixing it with 1/4 cup garlic olive oil and some amount of parm. It could have used more cheese too, in my mind anyway, where more cheese is always better! :-)
Christmas Eve we had The Brothers (Kyle's brothers Jeremy and Alex) over for spanakopita and lots of beer! It was nice, and my spanakopita was amazing! I've proved that I can cook a mean meal! ;-)
I'm free from school until the 8th of Jan. In some ways I miss the academic control of my life, but on the other hand, free time is glorious! And the little extra income from additional work hours is nice too!
Goodnight all.
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Little Christmas Eve
My family has never been one with particular traditions for the holidays. This has been convient and easy, matching my family's laid-back personality and simplicity. However, the holiday was always special and set apart from the rest of the work and school days.
Now, this is my first Christmas outside of my family. Kyle's and my first Christmas married. In all the drastic changes that have occured this year, mainly my mother's death, it seems fitting that this is the first Christmas seperate from my family. They're in FL with my dad's mom, hopefully distracted and happy.
As it is our first Christmas, I want it to be special and create some type of tradition for us. Finding or creating one is kinda challenging! So I'm googling my heritage, Scandinavian, to see what holiday traditions are appealing! I doubt that I'll make lutefisk a part of our Christmases! I've got the pine decorations down...and the candles. Maybe that's all I'll glean from "the Old Country." At least for this year.
And what started this? The recollection that today is Little Christmas Eve! Another Scandinavian thing.
Wee!
Now, this is my first Christmas outside of my family. Kyle's and my first Christmas married. In all the drastic changes that have occured this year, mainly my mother's death, it seems fitting that this is the first Christmas seperate from my family. They're in FL with my dad's mom, hopefully distracted and happy.
As it is our first Christmas, I want it to be special and create some type of tradition for us. Finding or creating one is kinda challenging! So I'm googling my heritage, Scandinavian, to see what holiday traditions are appealing! I doubt that I'll make lutefisk a part of our Christmases! I've got the pine decorations down...and the candles. Maybe that's all I'll glean from "the Old Country." At least for this year.
And what started this? The recollection that today is Little Christmas Eve! Another Scandinavian thing.
Wee!
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